Labor Day 2012

It would be on this day that I would find out the most terrifying, but most incredible news of my life.

I went to the store, bought a test, and there were two lines...I was pregnant!  At that moment, I was excited and scared at the same time.  I felt feelings I had never felt before, ever.  Up until now, I had planned my life perfectly.  I even basically constructed my own engagement.  I always say I love surprises, but secretly inside, I love having control over situations.  At this moment in my life, I could honestly say I had no control whatsoever.

Brian knew that I was taking a test, he even went with me to get one.  But I've taken tests before, and they always came out negative.  It was just me being paranoid.  He would always say, "Trust me, you are not pregnant" and he was right.  But this time was different.  After I showed him the test, we both smiled, hugged, and then sat down and stared at each other for what seemed like years.  With that one test, our lives had officially changed FOREVER.  

Brian and I dated for 9 years and have been married over 4 years, we've come into our own in our careers, and most would say, "You've been married long enough, it's time for kids."  I will say, you can be married for 15 years, have all the money in the world, and I don't believe you will ever feel ready.  After staring at each other for what seemed like a decade, I finally began crying.  I confessed to Brian that I didn't want this child to affect us.  What we have built as a couple, how we treat each other, the little things we do for one another, etc.  I didn't want that to go away.  I know many couples that let children take over and their marriage evaporates.  I didn't want that to happen.  I was scared.

We were also facing some other issues on the home front.  The company Brian worked for on Gunter did not get the contract for the next year, which means Brian was going to be out of a job for a short while.  This news can definitely put stress on any family, but especially when you just found out your going to start a family.  Nevertheless, Brian was slated to go on a job interview with this "new" company to get his old job back.

The day of the interview was the day we found out I was pregnant.  How's that for some stress?!

Even though I was thinking the worst throughout all that, I just kept thinking about the little miracle inside me.  How everything was going to be just fine.  I kept thanking God for everything we had, even when I felt like we had nothing.

We went for the first ultrasound on September 24, 2012 and got to see our little miracle in action.  As soon as I saw that little heartbeat (170 bpm) and saw that little peanut rolling around in there, I had an overwhelming peace.  Brian and I both cried.  It was such an amazing moment.

Everything has worked out completely how God wanted it to.  Brian actually got a job with another company and he received a raise!  I am doing great with my pregnancy, no sickness!! Praise the Lord!  I am going to use this blog to keep a record of all the great (and not so great) things that will happen during my journey to motherhood!  I want my child to be able to read about their parents love story and how our love made him/her!